The Poem That Forever Changed My Financial Life

I was leafing through some old files when I found a poem from a lifetime ago. Instantly, a rush of painful memories flooded my brain.

My life was in shambles. My husband’s gambling was out of control. The ATM kept insisting we had no money. I hated myself for being so helpless.

I prayed constantly, begging God to do something—just as I begged my husband to stop gambling. Both ignored me.

Until the day an envelope came in the mail, with no return address. Inside was a poem—no title, neatly typed, all caps, on crisp white paper. I read it and gasped.

The message was obvious. And terrifying. Spirit was telling me what I had to do—face my fear head on.

At first, I was confused. Wasn’t I facing fear every fricking day? But I was looking from the vantage point of a victim, pitifully wondering, ‘Why me?’

The poem persuaded me to shift my perspective by asking a different question: “What do I need to do…even if it scares me…especially if it scares me?”

Pondering that question set off a series of surprising decisions.

I went to 12 step meetings, like Alanon and Debtors Anonymous. I sought treatment for my codependence. I took classes, read books, got a divorce, did more therapy, signed up for seminars.

Then, seemingly out of the blue, I was hired to interview financially savvy women, wrote a book and became a financial expert. Nothing I would’ve ever believed possible.

And it all started with this poem. Sometimes answered prayers come in unexpected ways.

I’d love to hear your reaction to this poem? Did it help you find the courage to do what you fear? Leave me a comment below.

Comments & Feedback

  • Phyllis

    Wow – this hit home today.
    thank you for sharing it.

    I’m so glad you found it again.

    • barbara huson

      I’m soooooooo happy, Phyllis, it hit home for you…I was praying this would help someone else. Thanks for letting me know!

  • Janet

    Wow Barbara! I love this poem. As you know, I am writing my first book and even though I made some headway today; my self-limiting beliefs were trying to get me to quit. Why should I go through the pain I am experiencing to write this book. Between your poem and other guidance that I received, I remind myself that this book isn’t about me. This book is about bringing hope and possibilities that I might not even comprehend for someone else. So, I am committing to go where my fear is taking me and to keep writing. I’m not going to give up. I will keep taking the next step. And I love how powerful that last sentences are of the poem….”The fear is only the thing of the mind. The fear is that I’m going to have to give up self-hatred.” That’s exactly what I was doing. Hating myself. Feeling like a failure and wanting to quit which would make me feel worse. Your email couldn’t have come at a better time today! Thank you for sharing your journey!!!!

    • barbara huson

      Oh Janet, thank you so much for sharing your reaction with me. I totally understand how scary it is to write a book…I am terrified with every book, exactly like you described. It’s hard…but when you make it more about helping another and less about yourself, just like you’re doing, then it changes the perspective. I can’t wait to read your book. You HAVE to write it, n matter how scared you are!!!!

  • Pam

    Wow this takes me back. I volunteered for Terry Cole Whitaker when I lived in San Diego in the 1980s. I would drive to La Jolla. And I need to take this advice! Thank you Barbara.

    • barbara huson

      Oh wow…you knew her?!?! That’s so cool. She must’ve been one remarkable woman. Thanks for sharing this with me.

  • Lydia Theon Ware i

    My fears made my therapist say you me today, “you’re never going to do it, you just say you will and then you don’t . Just hire someone to clean.” That hurt because i was just reaching a point of facing that i had to take baby steps about my cleaning. I am a pre-hoarder….it hurts to throw out the trash and i have fear of being seen taking out a ton of bags. But my therapist and i had been talking about cleaning for a year now, to no avail. I feel the fear, i feel the self hatred. But i must face it and work beside the fear and not let it bury me. Thank you for sharing the poem. It hit home.

    • barbara huson

      Oh Lydia, my heart goes out to you. I’m very familiar with hoarding. And I hope you can hear this–you need a different therapist. Yours might be a wonderful healer, but not for you. You need someone who specializes in trauma. You can NOT think your way out of hoarding. You can not force yourself to clean. It’s too painful because it’s a reaction to an early trauma (even if you don’t remember one.) Please find someone who does EMDR or Somatic Therapy or Internal Family Systems work or another modality that bypasses the thinking brain and heals the core wound. I am praying for you!

  • Anne

    I’ve printed this out and put it on my wall in my office as a constant reminder. Thank you.

    • barbara huson

      That makes me so happy, Anne. Thanks for taking the time and letting me know.

      • Catherine

        Thank you! I have felt like I have been right at the threshold of something wonderful for a while… & waiting for God or someone or something to open the door. It is weird bc I have done so much trauma therapy & I am so proud of what I have come through with my integrity in tact. Yet, now, I have this new door. I don’t know why it’s about finances when I want to help women find their own Voice, Vocation, Calling & Destiny?!? But, it is. It’s the last puzzle piece in a way… I don’t know why I fear it? Or what is stopping me? But I do know this: I am going to do what I must to cross over & reach my own beautiful destiny!!! Thank you!

  • Lisa

    Janet (is your last name Jackson?)

    Putting in my order for your first book 📖!!!

  • Susan Coleman

    Thank you Barbara, Your recommendation to
    “do something scary every day” changed my life. Sending you love and best,

    • barbara huson

      I always love hearing from you Susan. It warms my heart l to know my advice was helpful to you, who are doing such great things in the world!!!! Big hugs.

  • Lisa


    I wrote this poem down in my journal this morning. Do you have any idea who might have sent it to you? I think random, anonymous acts of kindness are the most purest forms of love. I wonder if this person knew how may women they would be indirectly helping by sending you this message? ❤️

    I’m impressed by the amount of work you did to get out of your mess without quitting! Isn’t it trippy that when you start to take responsibility, offers come your way. God helps those who help themselves!

    It’s okay to be irresponsible or a victim a couple of times in life. Agree with the poem when it starts to become a pattern, it keeps you small and stops you from moving onto something much bigger and grander in life. You stay stuck.

    People will feel sorry for you in the beginning, but if you keep playing the violin 🎻 saying things like “my life is screwed” “I’m so tired working”, “my $1,500.00 rent is so expensive”, “I just had to pay a tax bill” people will get so tired hearing about it, especially if you think your problems are unique to you! Most people have a job, most people have rent and most people have taxes to pay and some people are privately going through something far more tragic. Most people will start to wonder if it’s a manipulative game you’re playing to give them something. This victim doesn’t need you to spot them some cash again💰. They need you to shake their shoulders.

    Writing this while waiting for my next dermatology appointment to get some sun spots blasted. So grateful I have the funds to do this 🙏.

    • barbara huson

      I so appreciate your kind words, Anne. I have no idea who sent that poem, but I have the sense it was part of an advertisement for something…maybe a conference or a workshop. I kind of remember a brochure in the envelope with it. But obviously, the only thing that got my attention was that poem! I love that you copied that poem into your journal. Thanks for letting me know.

  • Amina S McClendon

    Having fears can keep a person stuck, as well as breed fear and make life harder. As a result, goals can become impossible!

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When a devastating financial crisis rocked her world, Barbara Huson knew she had to get smart about money… and she did. Now, she wants to empower every women to take charge of their money and take charge of their lives! She’s doing just that with her best-selling books, life changing retreats and private financial coaching.

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